New...sort of.

It's a little bit pathetic to admit...but I really miss school.
There, I said it.
I now wait in cringing terror for the onslaughts of hardcover additional texts to be hurled at my head.

Mmk, ignoring this, I'm going to move on to another cringing topic: these meandering blog entries. Lenni love, I understand that I fail at this whole concept, but look at it this way -I'm doing so much better than Rina!

*cough* moving along. I miss my school! I miss my subjects! I miss seeing my children every damn day and you know what else? I miss ROUTINE!
Because I may procrastinate, and ignore my homework and researchresearchresearch until the last minute but at least I know what I'm avoiding. During the holidays I am plagued by that hideously vague feeling that I'm not doing something that's very important and should be done post-haste! But I can never remember what exactly it is that's sitting like a dead weight on the back of my neck, and so, in the typical manner of such things, with time and nurturing care, it will grow and -if given the opportunity- pass on characteristics to the next generation of dead weights.

In short, my lack of homework and consequent free time is causing enormous stress and panic.

And while I can hear Upton's helpful chant of 'Are you stressed yet? Are you stressed yet?' echoing through my head, I am tempted to give in to temptation, call up Gosford High School and let them know that it's all too much, the HSC relationship just isn't working out and the holidays have convinced me school is a place I should avoid.

So...back to the reasons why I want to go back there.

1) EXT 2! I miss it. I miss it so, so, so, SO much it's ridiculous.
It is ridiculous. It's a major work, I am never without it
Never.
So why do I miss it?
BECAUSE I CANNOT WRITE IT!
...more on that particular freak-out at a later date

2) ENG ADV/EXT 1. I fail at properly missing these. Let's face it, ADV is slightly more than a little bit mundane, and EXT 1 is annoyance-at-best-at-present.

3) GENERAL. I miss being good at something without putting real effort in. Seriously, really, really miss it. And what's not to miss? Sleeping behind my curls, finishing all my work in half an hour and lolling with Eamon, Leish, Mel and Kara.

4) Speaking of Eamon, Leish, Mel and Kara...I miss my children. The Steps, the constant, constant lols. All the spinning, and the spinning love with triplets. Studying with Catie and Katie and Kate, free periods and taking art outside and the love.
All the love

5) FRANÇAIS! I don't know how I'm going to give that up =S

6) The Dungeon.
Enough said really.

But this shouldn't be read as meaning that I'm not loving my holiday, my family are fabulous and we're bike riding everywhere, Jasper looks like a real dog now which is exciting. Oh, and today I re-organised my desk/study area. Which I think is quite impressive since I haven't organised it since...ever. It's just a gradual accumulation of my possessions abandoned on a white desk that has been twice it's normal height for about 3 years. Now of course, most of those possessions have wound up on my bed...oh that'll be fun to sleep next to.

Tomorrow's Plan:
Plant my rosebush in the front garden
Bike ride to Woy Woy =D
French Revision
Organise History Notes (again lol)

je t'aime
xox